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A Meal for Two -an original poem

He’s made no plans, this aged fellow.
Upon the stove sits a meal made for two,
Though the last time he’s seen another
In his home was several months ago.
Hopeful could define him, but
Despair comes sure enough, once
He’s had his fill of food
And his hope soon flutters away on the
Wings of a deeply pained sigh.

Imago Dei in a Pornographic World

 

Sexual Revolution and the Advent of Pornography

In 1953, the American culture took a turn it was not ready for: the first 52,000 copies of the pornographic magazine Playboy were sold.[1] The publishers and purchasers of this magazine, themselves made in the Image of God, were adherents of the new prevailing attitude among Americans that would give us the birth control pill in 7 years, and in 20 years legalize abortions.[2] This attitude is the heart of the sexual revolution that argued for a more accepting moral stance on sexuality, including pornography. The revolution was radically successful in changing the mindset of our culture, further marring the Image in each of us that God gave us when we were fashioned.

So successful was this revolution, in fact, that some new technologies introduced to this culture rose or fell almost exclusively on the criteria of porn. Beta lost the so-called “format wars” to VHS, and the Internet made it into every home in America because of the power of lust in pornography.[3] In 1998, it was estimated that 70,000 websites were dedicated to pornography[4] and as of 2010, it was up to 12% of all content on the internet.[5]

The smartphone is at the center of this cultural trend, since access to the internet has never been so easy. Although the smartphone was introduced to the world in 1992,[6] it wasn’t until 1999 that the first smartphone had internet connectivity.[7] Even then, it wasn’t until 2007 with the multi-touch smartphone boom that smartphones became popular and internet joined the average American in his bed.[8] With this device, porn can and has spread much further with much more secrecy than before. Porn can now be accessed anywhere at anytime right from the palm of the hand. Before the popular advent of the smartphone, in 2003 it was said that internet pornography generated about 2 billion dollars annually.[9] Three years ago it generated around $13 billion in the US alone.[10]

As might have been guessed by these numbers, men are not the only ones accessing this content. In 2004, 42% of all visitors to adult sites, in one study, was shown to be all female visitors, with women between the ages of 18 and 34 to be the most common.[11] This doesn’t mean that only young adults are the ones coming across these sites. 90% of boys and 60% of girls are exposed to pornography before they reach the age of 18, with the average age of exposure being 11.[12] Adults, adolescence, and even children are all falling in the wake of this great beast.

This culture, ignorant of the doctrine of Imago Dei, has produced addicts who cannot quit when they try, who lose their jobs for not controlling their urge to view porn at work, and who have reported increased secrecy in their relationships, less intimacy, and more depression.[13]

 

Imago Dei in Scripture and Tradition

In Genesis 1:26, God takes counsel with Himself to make mankind in His image and after His likeness. In the following verse, Moses records “So God created man in His own image, in the image of God he created him,” and later in 2:7, “and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living creature.” In these words, we’re told that God the Father made man in His own image, in the image of God (Christ), by breathing the breath of life (the Holy Spirit) into him, so that the first man is created in the Image of the Triune God. This is what the Scriptures teach us, but what does it mean? Though some have emphasized one more than another, the truth of the matter seems to be a synthesis of the most popular views and more: Dominion, Virtue, Intellect, and Freedom. This is in harmony with the teaching of Saint Gregory of Nyssa that the word “image” is used to encapsulate every good thing given to us by God, even the kingdom of God which is within us (Luke 17:21).[14]

Dominion. In verse 26, when God is taking counsel for the creation of mankind, He declares that they should have dominion over the universe that He has just created. Saint Gregory the Theologian writes that it shouldn’t be surprising that mankind was created last, “since for him, as for a king, the royal dwelling had to be prepared and only then was the king to be led in, accompanied by all creatures.”[15] This dominion, along with submission, was only partially given at first. He was made lower than the angels (Psalm 8:5) but taken by the Lord to name the animals under his authority (Genesis 2:19-20). In time, through the fulfillment of God-given commandments and from the education given him by the angelic servants, mankind would have been given authority even over the angels and archangels, authority that was given to Jesus Christ after He was raised from the dead (Hebrews 2:5-9; Matthew 28:19).[16] This right for mankind to rule all things is God given and included in the phrase “Image of God.”[17]

Virtue. In Ancient Near Eastern Thought and the Old Testament, John Walton notes that it isn’t only the office and function of the “image” alone that makes a king “the perfect likeness” of his deity, but also a sharing in the qualities and attributes.[18] This harmonizes well with the Patristic witness which teaches that the image and likeness are two parts of a whole. “Image” is that part of man that can never be revoked or removed that allows for union with God, while “Likeness” refers to the perfected virtues that draw us nearer to God that can be lost through practicing the vices.[19] The former is the capacity for Christ-likeness, while the latter is Christ-likeness. Man, then, was made to be like his Maker in both office and qualities as a virtuous king.

Intellect. In order to properly exercise his office of king and to maintain his virtue, God also made mankind reasonable (the Intellectual Faculty) with the capacity to desire (the Desiderative Faculty) and to harness and use aggression (the Irascible Faculty).[20] The ability to desire and to use anger is natural to mankind, and is seen used properly by Jesus Himself in that He desired the doing of His Father’s will more than to eat food (John 4:31-34) and in the cleansing of the Temple in His zeal (John 2:13-16). In using his reason properly, mankind was meant to desire nothing other than God, while aggressively removing any obstacle to his union with the Lord.[21]

Freedom. This use of reason for the maintaining of his office and virtue assumes, of course, a freedom of will.[22] Saint John of Damascus teaches that reason and free will are partners with one another and that one cannot have one without the other.[23] It is by this power of freedom that mankind is deiform, that is, can become like God.[24] Further, man could not be considered virtuous if the virtues which he possessed were imposed on him.[25] This virtuous freedom is, according to Saint Paul, the “glorious liberty of the children of God” (Romans 8:21) and the commands given the free man are called the “law of liberty” by Saint James (James 2:12).

As mentioned earlier, through man’s obedience to this law of liberty, he would have perfected the virtues within him and achieved the perfection of the likeness of the Image of God given him at his creation, and then been given the right to rule over all creation, including the angelic powers, under the righteous rule of God. Unfortunately, our experience of reality has shown us that this goal of man’s creation was not met at the start. This misuse of the powers and gifts given man has led him into a plethora of Image marring sins, including pornography.

 

The Loss of Likeness to the Plague of Pornography

In what way, though, does pornography mar the Image of God in man? Through our engaging with lust, we submit our Intellect to desire and aggression, thus becoming slaves to vice rather than exemplars of virtue, giving over our right to rule to the passionate and evil spirits that tempt us to vice. In this way, mankind becomes unrecognizable from the original state of his first parents or of the goal of deification for which he was to strive. Pornography, harnessing the power of lust over man, accomplishes this in a way never seen before in the history of mankind.

Desire and Aggression over Reason. As noted above, the correct use of the faculties of man’s reason was to properly orient his desire towards God and aggression towards anything opposed to this desire. However, once mankind had given themselves over to the pursuit of sensible pleasures rather than to union with God, they became enamored with a multiplicity of passions and desires (Romans 1:26, Ephesians 2:3, Titus 2:11) and their Intellects darkened and misused. As for the Irascible Faculty, it began to busy “itself with achieving and safeguarding carnal, sensual pleasure.”[26] Instead of desiring God and using aggression to find Him, they now use their aggression against Him in order to keep their desire for sensual pleasures. This is the epitome of irrational behavior.[27]

The multiplicity of man’s desires begin to bore him in time, causing him to search for greater desires to occupy him, and the use of his Irascible Faculty has, in our times especially, become married to his desire for lust in a way that abuses his sexual partners.[28] In fact, studies have shown that prolonged exposure to pornography leads users to greater levels of porn usage and more extreme and dangerous acts that used to disgust them before.[29] These acts are then transferred to the bedroom where they will abuse their partners with violent acts of pleasure that sometimes lead to death.[30] This, certainly, is a misuse of the faculties given to us by God and leads to the Intellect’s slavery to the Desiderative and Irascible faculties, and the Image’s slavery to the passions.

The Image in Bondage & The Slave Trade. In the sin of our forefather, he lost for himself and his descendants the true freedom that he was given at his creation, called the “liberty of God.”[31] Now, “through the perverted use of his freedom, man becomes the slave of sin, captive to the desires and sensual pleasures to which he has turned, subject to the false divinities,”[32] “enslaved to elemental principles of the world,” (Galatians 4:3) forced into “following the prince of the power of the air” (Ephesians 2:2). This is seen most clearly in the slavery which some pornography addicts have reported.[33] When compared to most other vices of our time, pornography seems to be the most addictive habit.[34] These words from Fight The New Drug summarize well the new slavery in which the passionate man finds himself:

As porn users become desensitized from repeated overloads of dopamine, they often find they can’t feel normal without a dopamine high. Even other things that used to make them happy, like going out with friends or playing a favorite game, stop providing enjoyment because of the dulling effects of CREB. They experience strong cravings and often find themselves giving more of their time and attention to porn, sometimes to the detriment of relationships, school, or work. Some report feeling anxious or down until they can get back to their porn. As they delve deeper into the habit, their porn of choice often turns increasingly hard-core. And many who try to break their porn habits report finding it “really hard” to stop. [35]

Unfortunately, slavery isn’t just the business of demons. They’ve taught mankind to play along in the abduction of other human beings, using the Irascible Faculty wrongly, for the fulfillment of the desires of other slaves of demons.[36] The victims of these crimes can be anyone, but are often children, handicapped, and beautiful women deceived into trafficking.[37] Their crime doesn’t stop at abduction. They’ve been known to drug, rape, beat, cane, whip, suffocate, electrocute, drown, mutilate, and choke their victims.[38]

These evils secretly fuel the growth of pornographic content available, in both digital and magazine content.[39] This flies in the face of the most common argument against anti-porn voices: “It isn’t hurting anyone, so why should I stop?” Pornography not only hurts the viewer, but it is built on a foundation of abuse and slavery of other human beings. What Jean-Claude Larchet says about the passion of lust in general has become true of pornography in particular: “…the impassioned person is unaware of the other’s freedom insofar as his only goal is the satisfaction of his own desire…”[40]

God never created us to be slaves to the demonic spirits or to one another. We were meant to have dominion over the entire created order together, in partnership and love with one another, under the dominion of God. Having given ourselves over to the passions, the demons, and enslaved even our own brothers and sisters, we have not only become like the animals, we have become worse than them.

Deiform Man in the Likeness of Beasts. Since “man no longer sees the centre of his being in the image of God, which he bears, but rather in his sexual functions,”[41] he falls into a subhuman state. True humanity, as we have seen above, consists in realizing the goal of his being which is to attain to the perfection of the likeness of God in virtue as well as in office.[42] This virtue was not maintained in the beginning, and is ignored and even mocked in our pornographic culture. This new virtueless state of mankind is seen by the Fathers as a mirror image of the savage beasts, which is fundamentally opposed to the fulfillment of the Image of God.[43] In the words of Saint Maximus the Confessor, man is “compared to the senseless cattle, seeking, desiring, and acting in everything like they, and even surpassing them in insanity…”[44] We now live in “clear and obvious likeness to unreasoning animals.”[45]

What else would you call this culture than an animal culture? We prefer feeding our sexual appetites over the reasonable use of our faculties. We are being herded around like animals by demonic spirits from one expression of lust to another, from one form of sexual deviancy in porn to another. We rape, beat, and even kill each other for sexual pleasure just like animals. And like the animals, we are not free to use our reason to overcome this slavery to lust and pornography.

What’s worse is that the animals, not having an Intellectual Faculty, can’t commit the evils that we can. We enslave each other; electrocute, drown, mutilate, and choke each other; and then we film and photograph these evils to share with and corrupt others to become enslaved to this evil of pornography. As we’ve seen before, these men after being corrupted at a very young age cannot seem to shake their slavery to this passion, losing relationships, jobs, and peace of mind. In other words, the pornographic man loses those good things that separate him from the animal kingdom, sharing a new likeness with them and even the demonic forces that have enslaved them.

 

Conclusion

It is a matter of fact that lust is an obstacle for restoring the Image and achieving the Likeness of Christ.[46] This cannot be debated. Lust is antithetical to love, which is perfectly expressed in the Trinitarian community and is to be fully realized in the mirror of this community, the Church composed of people who have restored the Likeness of the Image of God in them.[47] Lust is self-loving and self-serving, to the great detriment of everyone in society: men who are most often plagued with pornography, women who have suffered both as viewers and victims, children and the handicapped who should be protected rather than exploited.[48]

This doesn’t have to be so. Just as in the first book of Moses, God even now takes counsel with Himself to remake mankind in the Likeness of His Image. Christ our High Priest has ascended into the heavens and continually prays for us (Hebrews 7:25). The Spirit of God in us groans for us with utterances that are too wonderful for words (Romans 8:26). The Father, in counsel with the Son and the Spirit, grants us every good thing for our salvation, spiritual health, and eternal life. In this counsel, the Son was incarnate, was crucified and risen from the dead for us, and released us from bondage to sin, the devil, and death.

In order to truly restore the Image of God, we should join the Triune God in this conversation through ascetic labor by first making a covenant with our eyes so as to never submit to lust (Job 31:1), shunning pornographic content in every form we find it. We ought to spend the rest of our days grasping after the Likeness of God, for the kingdom of God is taken by force (Matthew 11:12) and the sexually immoral will not inherit it (Galatians 5:19-21).[49]

[1] Daniels, Robert, The War Within (Wheaton, Il: Crossway Books, 2005), 16.

[2] Ibid., 16-17.

[3] Ibid., 18-19. It is of no surprise that Playboy sales dropped as soon as secretly downloading pornographic content in the privacy of one’s home became available with the home computer.

[4] Ibid., 20.

[5] http://www.bangkokpost.com/tech/mobile/194020/the-importance-of-porn.

[6] https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2012-06-29/before-iphone-and-android-came-simon-the-first-smartphone.

[7] https://www.qualcomm.com/news/releases/1999/06/15/qualcomm-s-pdq-smartphone-provides-ideal-platform-wireless-business.

[8] About 72% of Americans report having a smartphone as of February 2016, according to Pew Global. http://www.pewglobal.org/2016/02/22/smartphone-ownership-and-internet-usage-continues-to-climb-in-emerging-economies/.

[9] Daniels, The War Within, 23.

[10] http://www.expastors.com/how-many-pastors-are-addicted-to-porn-the-stats-are-surprising/.

[11] Daniels, The War Within, 24.

[12] http://www.huffingtonpost.com/elwood-d-watson/pornography-addiction-amo_b_5963460.html.

[13] http://www.apa.org/monitor/2014/04/pornography.aspx.

[14] Seraphim Rose, Genesis, Creation, and Early Man: The Orthodox Christian Vision 2nd ed. (Platina, CA: St Herman of Alaska Brotherhood, 2011), 199.

[15] Ibid., 141.

[16] Irenaeus of Lyons, On the Apostolic Preaching (Crestwood, NY: St Vladimir’s Seminary Press, 1997), 46-47, 49.

[17] For kings ruling as the image of their deity in the Ancient Near East, see John Walton, Ancient Near Eastern Thought and the Old Testament (Grand Rapids, MI: Baker Academic, 2006), 89.

[18] Ibid., 212.

[19] Jean-Claude Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses: An Introduction to the Ascetic Tradition of the Orthodox Church Volume I, trans. Fr. Kilian Sprecher (Montréal: Alexander Press, 2012), 17-18.

[20] On man made in the likeness of the Logos, see Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses, 15, 23 & 47.

[21] On the Intellect’s superior role over the Desiderative Faculty, see Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses, 63-82. On the Intellect’ superior role over the Irascible power see Ibid., 83-88.

[22] This teaching is expressed by Saints Gregory of Nyssa, Basil the Great, Maximus the Confessor, Thalassius, and Macarius the Great, Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses, 89.

[23] An Exact Exposition of the Orthodox Faith by Saint John of Damascus, II.XXVII accessed online at http://www.orthodox.net/fathers/exactii.html#BOOK_II_CHAPTER_XXVII.

[24] Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses, 8, 90.

[25] Ibid., 91.

[26] Ibid., 86

[27] “Henceforth man no longer sees the centre of his being in the image of God, which he bears, but rather in his sexual functions.” Ibid., 163. See also Ibid., 40, 161.

[28] Ibid., 77

[29] http://fightthenewdrug.org/why-watching-porn-is-an-escalating-behavior/ and http://fightthenewdrug.org/how-porn-affects-your-sexual-tastes/.

[30] http://fightthenewdrug.org/how-porn-affects-your-sexual-tastes/ and http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2016/05/04/texas-man-killed-his-prom-date-with-rough-sex.

[31] Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses, 94.

[32] Ibid., 94.

[33] http://www.apa.org/monitor/2014/04/pornography.aspx

[34] http://fightthenewdrug.org/how-porn-can-become-addictive/

[35] http://fightthenewdrug.org/how-porn-can-become-addictive/

[36] http://fightthenewdrug.org/the-porn-industrys-dark-secrets/

[37] Ibid.

[38] Ibid.

[39] Ibid.

[40] Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses, 166.

[41] Ibid., 163.

[42] Ibid., 41.

[43] Ibid., 41-42.

[44] Ibid., 42.

[45] Rose, Genesis, Creation, and Early Man, 475.

[46] Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses, 162.

[47] Ibid., 161-2

[48] Ibid., 166

[49] Larchet, Therapy of Spiritual Illnesses, 17, 85.

A Prayer Rule for Those Struggling with Despondency or Despair Suggested by Saint Seraphim of Sarov

 

A Prayer Rule for Those Struggling with Despondency or Despair Suggested by Saint Seraphim of Sarov

Do not listen to where your thoughts send you, but pray like this:

Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are they that hunger and thirst after righteousness, for the shall be filled.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the sons of God.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heave.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Rejoice, and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven.
Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
Both Now and ever, and unto the ages of ages. Amen.
Remember me, O Lord, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Remember me, O Master, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.
Remember me, O Holy One, when Thou comest in Thy Kingdom.

O all-hymned Mother who didst bear the Word, holiest of all the saints, accept now our offering, and deliver us from all misfortune, and rescue from the torment to come those that cry to thee: ‘Alleluia” (3x)

Remember, Lord, our father St Seraphim; and remember me, (your own name,) O Lord.

In this way the Lord will forgive my sins and yours as well. And so we shall be saved!

Additional Prayers When Attacked by Despair

The Prayer of St. Antioch

Trusting, O Lord, in the abyss of Thy loving-kindness, I offer Thee this prayer from my foul mouth and my unclean lips. Remember me, for Thy holy name was invoked over me and Thou hast redeemed me with the price of Thy blood, for Thou hast sealed me with the betrothal of Thy Holy Spirit and Thou has raised me from the depth of my transgressions, that I should not be seized by the enemy.
O Jesus Christ, defend me and be my strong helper in my struggle, for I am a slave of lust and I am assailed by it. But Thou, O Lord, leave me not cast to the earth and condemned by my deeds. Free me, O Lord, from the evil slavery of the prince of this world and make me Thine own in Thy commandments. Thy Person is the way of my life, O my Christ, and the light of my eyes. O God, Master and Lord, give me not roving eyes, and dispel from me evil lust. Defend me with Thy holy arm. Let not longings and lusts overwhelm me, and give me not up to a shameless soul.
May the light of Thy presence shine in me, O Lord, lest darkness overwhelm me, and I be snatched by those who walk in the night. Do not surrender to invisible beasts, O Lord, a soul which confesses to Thee. Do not allow Thy servant, O Lord, to be wounded by alien dogs.
Grant me to be a receptacle of Thy Spirit, and make me a house of Thy Christ, Holy Father. O Guide of the lost, guide me lest I stray to the left. I long to see Thy face, O Lord. O God, guide me by the light of Thy countenance.
Grant me, Thy servant, a fountain of tears, and give Thy creature the dew of Thy Holy Spirit, lest I wither like the fig tree which Thou didst curse; and let tears be my drink, and prayer my food.
Turn, O Lord, my weeping into joy and receive me into Thine eternal tabernacles. Let Thy mercy overtake me, O Lord, and Thy bounty encompass me, and pardon all my sins, for Thou art the true God Who pardonest transgressions. And do not allow, O Lord, the work of Thy hands to be put to shame on account of the multitude of my transgressions, but call me, O Lord, through Thine only-begotten Son, our Savior.
And raise me who lie prostrate like Levi the publican, and quicken me who am slain by my sins, like the son of the widow.
For Thou alone art the Resurrection of the dead, and to Thee is due the glory forever. Amen.

And another prayer St Seraphim advised people to say in moments of despondency and as an antidote to despair:

Master and Lord of Heaven and earth and King of the ages! Deign to open the door of repentance to me, for in anguish I pray to Thee, our true God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Light of the world. Look upon me in Thy great loving-kindness and accept my prayer. Incline Thine ear to my prayer and forgive me all the evil that I have done by the abuse of my free will. Behold, I seek rest, yet I do not find it, for I have not received forgiveness from my conscience. I thirst for peace, but there is no peace in me from the dark abyss of my transgressions. Hear, O Lord, a heart which cries to Thee. Regard not my evil deeds, but consider the agony of my soul and make haste to heal me who am badly wounded. By the grace of Thy love for men give me time for repentance and deliver me from my shameful deeds. Reward me not according to Thy justice and requite me not according to my deeds, lest I finally perish.
Hear me, O Lord, in my despair. Behold, I am bereft of my will and of every thought of amendment. Therefore, I have recourse to Thy compassion. Have mercy on me, cast down and condemned on account of my sins. O Lord, rescue me who am enslaved and held by my evil deeds, as if I were shackled with chains. Thou Alone knowest how to set prisoners free; and as Thou Alone knowest secret things, Thou headset wounds which are known to no one, but seen by Thee.
Therefore, being tortured in every way by cruel pains, I cry only to Thee, the Physician of all who are afflicted, the Door of those who know without, the Way of the lost, the Light of those in darkness, the Redeemer of those in bonds, who ever restrainest Thy right-hand and witholdest Thine anger prepared for sinners, but who givest time for repentance through Thy great love for me.
O Thou Who art quick to show mercy and slow to punish, shine the light of Thy countenance upon me, who have fallen badly, O Lord. And in Thy loving-kindness stretch out Thy hand to me and raise me from the depth of my transgressions.
For Thou Alone art our God, Who dost not rejoice at the destruction of sinners, and Who dost not turn away Thy face from those who cry to Thee with tears.
Hear, O Lord, the voice of Thy servant who cries to Thee, and manifest Thy light to me who am deprived of light. And give me Thy grace, for I have no hope whatever, that I may always trust in Thy help and power. Turn my weeping into joy, rend my rage and gird me with gladness.
And grant that I may rest from my dark deeds and enjoy the morning calm with Thy chosen, O Lord, whence all pain, sorrow, and sighing have fled away. And may the door of Thy Kingdom be opened to me, that I may enter with those who rejoice in the light of Thy countenance, O Lord, and that even I may receive eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Amen.

 

A prayer rule for those struggling with despondency or despair suggested by St Seraphim of Sarov found in the book An Extraordinary Peace, pages 337-340.

Ye are God’s as gods -an original poem

 

       all
           of earth groaned
            for the revelation of the sons
             of the Almighty. For from glory
              fell the first, and by them fell our parents,
               sick by the fruit of a tree, in need of the Antidote.
                Our Physician took flesh for us and slept. This night,
God    is    in
                the manger, resting, revealing Himself upon a tree as food
               for the health of souls, our eternal Elixir of Immortality.
              For He, not fallen, risen has raised our parents
             to the glory of the Almighty,
            as sons of the Most High,
           for deification of
       all


-Ye are God's as gods
an original poem

 

In Thick Darkness, O Lord, Thou Art Ineffable Light -an original poem

I was washed
And when sprinkled, cleansed.
You removed my heart of stone,
And gave to me a clean heart,
O God. In the flood, the gates
Of Paradise were made open for me.
Below the ark, the old man drowned,
And in Your cross was crucified and died.
When the new man rose, you illumined me.
Now, O Lord, I am in darkness.
I have hardened my heart against you.
And no longer have clean hands or a pure heart.
I have turned my heart against my neighbor,
Refusing to meet his needs. So you have
Visited me. My soul thirsted for the waters
Of Your holy city, but my flesh desires the
Nile. So You have made it blood, for I
Refuse to Commune with You.
You have sent to me a great darkness
And in this darkness, I dwell alone,
Unmoving, in silence. This darkness, my
God, I feel. Yet You have revealed the
Hidden and secret things of Your wisdom:
You dwell in thick darkness.

You shall wash me,
And I shall be whiter than snow.
And in the baptism of my tears, I shall
Be cleansed, for every night I flood my bed.
Only the clean of heart shall truly see You,
And ascend Your holy hill. For Noah
Was blameless and ascended to
Your mountain; and Moses at
Rephidim showed us victory in Your cross.
Teach me to wash my garments
And to ascend into the cloud of darkness.
Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity;
Restore unto me the joy of Your salvation, my health.
You are my helper, for I have set
You before me. Strike the rock
For my sake, and let the earth
Swallow up the Korah of my flesh.
For You have set a table before me.
Transfer me to Your kingdom of light in Goshen,
With the righteous on Your right hand.
Let us wrestle, my God, and let
Me limp. For You have revealed
A great truth: There will be no sun, for
You, O Christ, are our light.

Domenico Fetti - Sleeping Girl

As She Sleeps (Another Preacher’s Wisdom) – an original poem

Oh dear feather, falling so gently,
As wind is faint and the sun is hard.

How did you find me?
And how did you make your way to me to comfort my soul?

For such days are drudgery and pain, full of sorrows
(And such that you may never believe).

For these, my bed, my grave, is my only consolation.
The sun is slow, the moon so quick.

And without aid and alone have I had to fight.
Without a companion, I travel with tears.

To limits I’ve stressed my mind,
And with many labors I toiled in vain.

With no enemies around me and at peace with all
Yet, not a friend I find in my need.

But I sit in peace; silence, my good friend,
And you, dear feather falling, keep me company.

Rest, feather, rest,
For the breeze begins your journey again soon.

 

-As She Sleeps (Another Preacher’s Wisdom)
an original poem inspired by a woman sleeping during a lecture on Ecclesiastes.

A reflection on reputation. -an original poem

Could you know the force you have –
And how, upon my mind,
You were impressed upon me,
Before a word was spoken –
To move this soul to tears when but
Your name is mentioned.
Does a waterfall know the strength of its tumbling?
Or the infant its power to soften a heart?
To hear rumors of your compassion,
And the love you share with God for your siblings, prevent me from forgetting you.
May I be forgotten forever,
Save in your prayers.

Of Memories Hard to Forget -an original poem

I saw a picture of a place
That seemed as though it were familiar.
Perhaps it was the setting sun
In the scene that stirred the mem’ry
Of the woods behind a house I once shelled
Peas. It was not in my nature
To care for the wonder and/or
beauty of nature. I never did know
Why anyone would bother with
It. But I loved her, and she loved
It. This picture stirs a memory of
A place, but it is not that same place.

When You Love an Angel -an original poem

Today I saw an angel in her heavenly array.
In the glory of her face all the others fade away.

I saw her force a smile, push despair out of her eyes,
And then I saw a joy, a peace, that made her want to cry.

But it wasn’t me or mine that had a part to play,
‘Cept simply be around for her to say “Good day.”

What humbling so needful now, so painfully applied
For in your eyes, my love, I see
There’s no one in your eye.

The Mistress of My Dreams (I Condemn Myself) -an original poem

Peacefully I sleep and rest until she comes again,
(She always manages to.)
To disturb the peace I’ve cultivated
In the life I’ve separated from the acts of my past.
The guilt of my deeds haunts me
When she comes to serve notice.
“Have you come again, my dear mistress
To haunt and disturb?”
Yet this dove of innocence and love
Remains unmoved by my interrogation:
“YOU HAVE BROKEN PAROLE”
In stillness I do quake:
“Oh, Siren of my dreams, will there ever come a day when I am no longer in your service?”
A leaflet (the sentence of days gone by), old and dry,
With many bends and creases, tears and burns, falls gracefully upon me
As I lay resting (unrested) upon my bed:
“For corruption of innocence: 5 years.
For running: 5 years.”
And I weep,
Weep the tears of unsaving sorrow,
Dejection I only knew when I left her.
“Leave me be, sweet lady, my love.
I have moved on to be disturbed no more by my vow,
My hope against hope.
Five years I gave you, and five promised
Keep me bound in despair.
Release me from my oath
And we both may enjoy peace!

Dear Mother, will I ever be free or
Must I from night to night see this pure
And innocent face marred from the scars of my own hands?
Will your daughter ever be free from my memory
Or I from my guilt?”
My decade is not yet over.
My vow to love and to hurt remains.